So I have been having this anger towards my mom for awhile now. I can't seem to get over the fact that she's in Samoa and my dad is here in Utah. I just feel that she has abandoned my dad and that she doesn't even care anymore. I ALWAYS ALWAYS wonder why she left in the first place. All her grandchildren are here and her kids, and plus my dad is sick. It just makes me more angry because it makes my dad so sad and depressed that he can't be by his wife. My dad has been stressing so much and it makes even harder for my sister and bro in law to live with him. He's always in a bad mood, swearing and every time my mom calls he doesn't make him happy because she's ALWAYS asking for something. I just hate seeing my dad like this and hearing about his bad moods from my sister. I would've thought that by moving to a smaller location and smaller payment that things would be much easier, but its not even like that. I'm just so angry with my mom, I don't even want to talk to her or send her messages. My dad is wanting to go to Samoa to go live with my mom, but I'm so not for it. My dad does dialysis and has a lot of problems, and I so don't believe that Samoa is the answer to his problems. He needs to be here in the states where he can get the medical attention needed. I think it's so selfish of my mom to think this way. I'm ALWAYS thinking about the WHAT IFS.....
What if something happens to either one of them
What if something happens to my dad?
What if something happens while doing his dialysis?
UGH!!! so annoyed with everything. I pray that heavenly father will take away my anger and just forgive my mom and go with whatever decisions they make. I just felt like venting to someone and getting out my anger. I can't help but think about my dad and what will happen if he goes out there. I hope that my mom realizes soon what she is doing and hopefully make the decision of coming back. I do miss and love my mom don't get me wrong, I just don't support her decision in moving to Samoa and leaving my dad behind. I love my dad soooo much and I would just hate to see or hear anything happen to him.
Anger doesn't solve anything but it is a natural emotion. I think your dad is awesome and hope things work out for the best. By the way your little family is beautiful!
ReplyDeleteI miss dad:(:( I know it didn't help when we left too but hopefully soon we can come visit!! We've done all we can about that situation lol the only thing we can do is just be there for him:)
ReplyDeleteDaddys Girls:):)